I’m not certain what determines whether a fear is legitimate or not, I mean really, if you’re scared, you’re scared. There’s no need to go in front of a committee to have your fear validated. Is there?
Anyhoo, here are my three fears – legit to me. Maybe not so much in your eyes…
1. Failing as a parent. I do everything within my power to give LG the tools she will need to succeed in her life. I pray over her constantly. And then I wonder and worry about what else I should be doing for her. I’m not foolish enough to think that being “raised right” is enough. I know it’s not. I see people every day who were “raised right” and they leave a lot, in my opinion, to be desired. I sincerely hope God honors my prayers as it relates to my favorite child.
2. Going slap off one day. I am generally a chill person. Sometimes, too much so. But sometimes someone will do something, or something will happen and I think I may just go nuts and wig out like Michael Douglas’ character in “Falling Down.” Have you seen that movie? Basically old dude is just kinda frustrated and everything/body he encounters that day makes him wig the hell out. Don’t worry, this isn’t a confession that I’m about to snap (I hope), but there are days when I think, hmmm…maybe losing it wouldn’t be such a bad thing.
3. Rodents. I can’t explain it. I’m just scared of them.